So, I was searching the web and this is what I found.......

Fighting To Survive :Building 429
Crying on the inside and it cuts me deep‘Cause I know you’re gonna smile when I fallI can’t help but feel the fear when I’m standing here‘Cause I know you’re gonna laugh if I have to crawlCan you see the desperation?But you don’t know my situation‘Cause I, I’m fighting to surviveCan’t you see it in my eyes?Please don’t push me anymoreBut I, I’m still fighting to believeThat there is hope for meSomewhere beneath the very least of theseAnd I can’t help but feel ashamed when I know the truthThat there was more than I surmised inside your heartI want to make it go away but you bear the proofMy words burnt through your skin and left you scarredI didn’t see the desperation; somehow I didn’t see your situationBecause I’ve been fighting to surviveI didn’t see it in your eyesBut I won’t hurt you anymoreAnd I, I’m fighting to believeThat there is hope for meSomewhere beneath the least of these

So I'll let the fog in my mind fade and hopefully, I will Survive.

OK ....

OK , so I was thinking about our times past and what would have been, and all the what abouts, what ifs, and how comes of my life as well as others in my life, and wishing oh how much I could change all of my mistakes, all of the "bad" things that I have had happened to me, and the results of them, maybe my life would be different, maybe it would be better, or worse I don't know,But the one thing I do know is trials made me better off . At the time and for a long time after some of my hardest times I wish they would never have happened but as I look back on the lessons I have learned, the people I have Met, and the closer I get to God, they have all been worth the pain, And if i had the chance to go back and change them I don't thank I would , although I would take away the pain I have caused others away if I could. Then its now the time is now I can't change what is or what would be but now I can change now.
So here I am making another for the last time, you and I both know its not!,but anyway,I have come to find out if I didn't have the bad times I wouldn't know what a good time would be. So to all you who are thinking life sucks, it may and I am sure you all have bad days but lets keep on going together, and when the sun shows its face the maybe tomorrow will be a good day.

His Mercy Is Awesome!!!

His Mercy Is Awesome!!!

Ok, I know you all are wondering whats been going on with me and my walk with Christ, I know this because of the countless emails so here's the news.

As you all know I was to be released from Seward Jail in September of 2008 But to my surprise and to yours as well I Also had an outstanding warrant In Saline, Ks so yes, I was not released but transferred to Saline Co. Jail. I was there for 105 days, and was released on probation (Prise The Lord For His Mercy endured forever!!!!!!!) I should of been sent to Prison for what I Did (if you don't know, I cashed some stolen money orders) But God Is merciful. and of course then I had a warrant out in Lincoln because I missed court in Oct. so on January 9th I was brought back to Lincoln and on the 12th my bound was reinstated and I'm am now at Home,with my parents!
WOW what a difference 8 months makes. This has been a hard week adjusting back to somewhat normal life. Its been about 5 days and sometimes I still don't believe I am home. My first few nights I would wake up and Look around just to see if i was still at home.

I Do want to thank you all for your prayers, thoughts ,letters,cards,and love it means so much to me I do not know how to express my gratitude to you all.

A special thanks to the Larsens, for always accepting my phone calls and loaning a shoulder for me to cry on, an ear for me to talk off and a heart of love for Christ and others.as well as cumming to my court date. You are truly someone who has lived out your faith and helped me become stronger in mine. Thank you with all of my Heart .

I love you all ,and hope to see you all soon ( I am excited to meet some and become better acquainted )

Back in busniess...sort of

So this is Alatheia...and I'm "hacking" Amy's blog to post what she wants : ) So this is the post she told me to put up; [Ahem]



This last month has been a bit (Ok, a lot) of a struggle for me. On May 27th I was sentenced to 180 days of jail time, with 58 days good time and 11 days served. My release date is either Sept. 19 or 23, depending on whether I need to sit out a fine.

This past month I've really fought for my faith. My first week in jail was crazy. I thought a lot about what I wanted to do when I gout out of jail and i got all excited about the plans I was making.

These past few days I've done a lot of reading, trying to figure out how to be a better person and how to trust Christ. I couldn't figure it out...and then it hit me. I don't need to figure it out, I just need to do it. So now I'm swimming in uncharted territory trying to live fully surrendered to The Spirit. It's not about what I want to do (I. E. start saving, be a counselor at a camp, etc) it's about seeking Him...you know, like the verse, Seek ya first the kingdom of God, and His righteousness and all these things shall be added unto you. I started reading through the bible a few weeks ago but stopped because I was just trying to get the bible read before I got out. This last week I started seeking God's kingdom first and I've read so much but gained even more. More than I have in a really long time.

There are six things I've been seeing over and over these past few weeks;



#1) We are to walk worthy- we are God's children and so we must not drag His name through the mud. We are to represent God, not our flesh. We will do that at times tough...I know i have...but that is where God's forgiveness comes in.



#2) Press on - Even though we fail we must still continue and Finnish this race. If we give up what would we learn? Nothing! I've found though that when we struggle with trials and get through them, we do learn things.



#3) Staying Strong- It takes work to stay strong to your friends and God...but it's worth working at!



#4) Worry about nothing and pray about everything- Regardless of how big or small you problem is, give it to God. You will be surprised at the peace He gives you. Trust me! It's not easy when those thoughts of doubt sneak into your mind, but the more you give it to God the more peace you will have!



#5) Walk in love- Love thy neighbor as thy self. This is one of the hard ones for me since I'm living with people it'd be easy to hate. But I've found if I picture Jesus standing right behind them...it's a lot easier.

#6) Seek after God- This is the most important, and all other things are just "time fillers". Our responsibility to seek God needs to be first and foremost.

So this is Alatheia...giving an update on the Amy person : )
ttyl.....

Its so Peacful...

Sometimes......

All who sail the sea of faith Find out before too long How quickly blue skies can grow dark And gentle winds grow strong Suddenly fear is like white water Pounding on the soul Still we sail on knowing That our Lord is in control Sometimes He calms the storm With a whispered peace be still He can settle any sea But it doesn't mean He will Sometimes He holds us close And lets the wind and waves go wild Sometimes He calms the storm And other times He calms His child He has a reason for each trial That we pass through in life And though we're shaken We cannot be pulled apart from Christ No matter how the driving rain beats down On those who hold to faith A heart of trust will always Be a quiet peaceful place

Wow !! It was Sweet.......

WOW !!! I know this does not do justice, but this storm was right outside our door.

This Last Weekend...

Joe's Graduation (Anna's brother )

Wow! was it busy, but we did find a little bit of time to just sit around (after we had everything ready) but then it was back to work again,

For Anna it was tast testing,

For Betsy it was to turn around and say CHEESE.

And my job was to disappear, because I'm not photogenic : )